a girl who knew how to be happy even when sad (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
majorshipper) wrote2012-02-15 06:45 pm
majorshipper) wrote2012-02-15 06:45 pm
sky high heels and an attitude
I feel kinda bad for not actually doing much on LJ lately. To be honest, there's not very much interesting going on in my life. There's school, and that takes up enough on it's own that I don't do much else. Even in fandom, my inner lurker has been fighting to take over. I think it's just 'cause I'm so tired of the same old drudgery. *shrugs*
Today's been kinda tough, though. It was fine 'till I got home from campus and sat down to the work that's been building up. It's been a light week so far, but there's three big things due in the next few days(an informative speech, a memory speech video, and an essay detailing a tool or item of software for the ISS that we the student thought up) and I honestly have no motivation to do them. Plus, I was pretty sick yesterday, starting late in the afternoon, and I didn't sleep last night, so now I'm even more stressed from not sleeping and not getting work done.
Ugh. It just kinda feels like I'm barely keeping my head above water for no reason. I haven't heard back from my boss since December when they told me they still needed to find a secretary for our branch of the flight school, which means I have no income anymore. I haven't heard anything on the Academy's Summer program, and I feel like I'm stalled compared to how I was at the end of last year.
It's just really, really frustrating. I would feel better if I could actually accomplish anything fandom-related, and I'm making strides in my massive icon claims, but I still am not sure how much I'll have finished by the 20th.
I hate it when I get into these funks. :/ GAH. It's really annoying. In an attempt to cheer myself up, I am starting How I Met Your Mother. Wish me luck.
Today's been kinda tough, though. It was fine 'till I got home from campus and sat down to the work that's been building up. It's been a light week so far, but there's three big things due in the next few days(an informative speech, a memory speech video, and an essay detailing a tool or item of software for the ISS that we the student thought up) and I honestly have no motivation to do them. Plus, I was pretty sick yesterday, starting late in the afternoon, and I didn't sleep last night, so now I'm even more stressed from not sleeping and not getting work done.
Ugh. It just kinda feels like I'm barely keeping my head above water for no reason. I haven't heard back from my boss since December when they told me they still needed to find a secretary for our branch of the flight school, which means I have no income anymore. I haven't heard anything on the Academy's Summer program, and I feel like I'm stalled compared to how I was at the end of last year.
It's just really, really frustrating. I would feel better if I could actually accomplish anything fandom-related, and I'm making strides in my massive icon claims, but I still am not sure how much I'll have finished by the 20th.
I hate it when I get into these funks. :/ GAH. It's really annoying. In an attempt to cheer myself up, I am starting How I Met Your Mother. Wish me luck.
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*snuggles*
How I Met Your Mother will seriously help, but I'm always here for hugs!
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I watched some of an episode earlier today at the gym and I'm already a little bit in love.
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Neil Patrick Harris is basically god. Also once you finish a season you can watch their gag reels, which are the most hilarious ever xD
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Gag reels are always awesomes XD
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My LJ involvement has seriously gone down, too. I wanna get more into SPN but a. the fandom is scary b. no one reads my fic, lol.
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Do you promote it at
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And seriously, /GIANT HUG. It's really the worst when you just feel... blah and unaccomplished. I've felt stalled in life for, like, a while now, but at least I'm happy because I have people to talk to. So, just. /further snuggles for you
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Yeah. And I hate it because I have a perfectly clear picture of where I want my life to go, and it's usually good at motivating me, but right now it's...not.
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Try not to worry too much about hearing from the academy, it can take time, you'll hear something soon! <3
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I know it says they haven't even processed my application, but I can't help but freak out that they're going to reject me and I just...arg.
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you'll be fine and you'll be accepted. Try your bestest not to panic <3