majorshipper: (➘ darn them talking animals)
I feel kinda bad for not actually doing much on LJ lately. To be honest, there's not very much interesting going on in my life. There's school, and that takes up enough on it's own that I don't do much else. Even in fandom, my inner lurker has been fighting to take over. I think it's just 'cause I'm so tired of the same old drudgery. *shrugs*

Today's been kinda tough, though. It was fine 'till I got home from campus and sat down to the work that's been building up. It's been a light week so far, but there's three big things due in the next few days(an informative speech, a memory speech video, and an essay detailing a tool or item of software for the ISS that we the student thought up) and I honestly have no motivation to do them. Plus, I was pretty sick yesterday, starting late in the afternoon, and I didn't sleep last night, so now I'm even more stressed from not sleeping and not getting work done.
Ugh. It just kinda feels like I'm barely keeping my head above water for no reason. I haven't heard back from my boss since December when they told me they still needed to find a secretary for our branch of the flight school, which means I have no income anymore. I haven't heard anything on the Academy's Summer program, and I feel like I'm stalled compared to how I was at the end of last year.
It's just really, really frustrating. I would feel better if I could actually accomplish anything fandom-related, and I'm making strides in my massive icon claims, but I still am not sure how much I'll have finished by the 20th.

I hate it when I get into these funks. :/ GAH. It's really annoying. In an attempt to cheer myself up, I am starting How I Met Your Mother. Wish me luck.
majorshipper: (SPN - The apple pie life)
Hardly slept last night, and now I have a pounding headache that I know is only gonna get worse 'till I actually go to sleep. I even tried melatonin, to no avail.

Basically....ugggghhhhhh. I feel horrible. I don't want to get up and do anything, much less the things I need to do :/

I read a nice happy-ending-ey big bang from one of my favorite authors, but it only made me feel marginally better. Even [profile] cafe_de_labeill's fantastic artwork was unhelpful.

I was fine this morning; before it all hit me this afternoon, I was up at 830ish, me and mum watched four or five episodes of WC that she needed to catch up on. She's still in S2, but I think we can get her caught up before S3 starts again. We just chilled since the boys were gone and it was just me and her, and that was nice. But then the ickyness just hit me. And now the headache is throbbing in time with my pulse and I think my vision might be jittery. Ugh. At what point do these things cross over into migraine territory? The worst part is this is nothing compared to what I've had before, but I still feel like crap.

I hate being miserable this time of year. I'm grumpy and I don't want to talk to anyone IRL and I just want to curl up and lie still because that helps with the headache. But I can't because a) I need to do stuff, and b) that doesn't actually help; the only thing that helps is actually sleeping.

The only thing other than the bonding time me and mum had that's made me really happy in the past 24 hours is the fact that I painted my nails alternating red, blue and yellow. Not the right colors for the season, but I don't have green, so artistic primaries it was. It's ridic but it makes me feel better when I look at them, so thank God for simple pleasures and my ability to accept them.

Feel free to ignore this post, unless you have advice for handling headaches/migranes or want to commiserate(I like that word, apparently? Used it twice in the past couple of days. Word nerd alert!).

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