just dance

Originally posted by drunkcascookies at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012

*For the purpose of this discussion, someone who enjoys any kind of relationship, het, slash, OT3, OT4, whatever, is a shipper, since shipping comes from (relation)shipping, a non-gender-defined term
Also, for this discussion, we'll ignore my reasons/motivation for slashing vs het shipping

So, I was thinking earlier about how people define shipping or pairings you ship. Namely, how do you define what you ship? The context I started considering it was when I was considering Sam/Dean and Dean/Cas. I was reading Sam/Dean fic, which isn't OOC for me at all. I read S/D slash, I'll notice/comment on particularly slashy scenes in episodes, I'd probably make S/D graphics if I was so inspired. And yet, I don't consider myself a Sam/Dean shipper. I don't talk about it to the degree I talk about D/C(as I'm sure my flist has noticed). On the opposite side of the coin, I'll read Dean/Cas, I'll comment on Dean/Cas scenes, I'll do Dean/Cas graphics. I consider myself a Dean/Cas shipper. Ditto with Sam/Cas. I do the same actions for all three pairings, and yet I don't actively consider myself a Sam/Dean shipper. Is that because I don't hang out with other S/D shippers? Is it because of the stereotypes and stigma attached with shipping S/D that I don't want to fit into? Is it because I've never(so far) felt the urge to make S/D graphics? Of course, there are other minor (slash and het) pairings that I'll read the fics for and comment on scenes in SPN, yet some I do say I ship (Dean/Lisa, Cas/Meg, Michael/Lucifer), and others I don't (Sam/Gabriel most notably).

I considered that it's just because I like Dean/Cas more than Sam/Dean, which, yeah, okay, fits, but on a scale, I ship Sam/Cas less than Sam/Dean, so if it's for that reason, why do I consider myself a Sam/Cas shipper? Is it just because Sassy is so cracky, where S/D is comparatively serious?

I've had similar issues with het shipping, though I haven't really thought about it since then. In Stargate, I enjoyed reading Daniel/Janet fics and Daniel/Janet scenes, and yet I've never really considered myself a Daniel/Janet shipper. In Doctor Who, I'll read and maybe even one day write Amy/Rory fic and I enjoy their scenes a lot, and yet I don't classify myself as a proper Amy/Rory shipper.

I don't know why that happens. I don't think it's shame, because I've never been afraid to cop to shipping unpopular/controversial pairings(hello, SGA!), and in SPN, there really isn't any shame to be found anywhere. In fact, I'm known for shipping any two things that breathe (and even things that don't *coughDean/Impalacough*), which also takes out the possibility that I only ship "canony" things. I can't tell if it's a combination of intensity of emotions + ~special circumstances, or what. Maybe I'm just confusing. XD

SO. The point of all that was to maybe try and make some sense of it. But I'm curious about you guys. Are there pairings you ship but don't actually consider yourself as a shipper? Or am I all alone out here?

ETA: Just to make a point(not sure what point it is, though), I find myself currently reading a fic that has past tumbleweed!Sam/agave plant!Jo resulting in mpreg, and to top it off, it's NOT crack. wat.

I'm thinking about making Spotify playlists to go with the zips of my fanmixes. I just don't know how many people actually use Spotify. I guess it wouldn't hurt?

Which isn't to say I'm making another fanmix, I'm not, honest, because that takes time and I obviously don't have any of that...*facepalm*


In other news, I went out and got three different hair colors: a blonde, an auburn/reddish brown, and a soft black. We shall see which looks best. I'm gonna try the blonde one when I get home this afternoon.


Supernatural has (naturally) made it to the second-to-last round over in E!Online's Ultimate Fan Battle, if anyone cares to vote. We're up against Disney.


Okay, so I was rewatching the sneak-peak, and something about it bugged me: Lucifer, to be exact. Remember in episode two how he tried to get Sam to off himself? Remember how he said he wasn't giving up or going anywhere?
So, why does he suddenly seem so sad that Sam's given up? He's mocking him, obviously, but he does sound at least a tiny bit genuine when he says Sam's talk of death is depressing him. So I can't help but wonder if Hallucifer has developed some kind of survival desire? Which would make things doubly twisty, because he's just a subconscious manifestation of Sam's Hell-memories. Also, why wouldn't Hallucifer want Sam to die? Does he think Sam will get into heaven(I think so, but it's more what Sam thinks)? Does he just consider all things Sam-related a game, and if Sam gives up it's no fun anymore?

To be honest, I think what we see of Sam in the preview is pretty bad. Self-harm or not(I can see either situation, but IDK if show would go there considering it's fanbase is young women and they can't really show Sam engaging in self-harm AND saying it's a bad thing you shouldn't do). I think just the fact that Sam, the unrelenting never-give-up Winchester is finally too tired says a lot about his mental state and how it's changed over the past few years(and in S7 most dramatically). I'm usually quite the Dean!girl, as you all know, but I actually identify a lot with Sam's drive and personality(idk how much of it has to do with being raised as the youngest in a family-is-everything enviroment). So it's really interesting to watch him break down and come apart like this. I can't wait for the episode to air so we can analyze what's going on in his head.

TBH, I'm looking forward to that as much as I am Cas' return.

I feel like Misha's character could have used this:



What even is my life.

So, things are finally picking up for spn_party. Which I am eternally grateful for. I feel less like I'm looking into the abyss and waiting for it to start booing.
I also find myself really friggin invested in it(which isn't surprising, lol). I never really posted images/gifs at FFA or anything, and now I collect all sorts of stuff during the week to share at FFA to make things fun and interesting.
\o/

1. Leave a comment to this post!
2. I will give you a letter.
3. Post the names of five fictional characters whose names begin with that letter, and your thoughts on each. The characters can be from books, movies, TV shows or video games.

The awesome yappichick/jess_being_me gave me the letter "S".

Stinson, Barney - Yet another example of a character whose personality traits I utterly despise, and yet somehow he's grown on me. Most likely because he's changed quite a bit since S1, due in no small part, I think, to Robin. Anyways. I like him, for the most part. Grudging admiration.

Schiuto, Abby - Lifespiration. Seriously. Abby is pretty much everything I want to be, personality wise. I love that she's always bubbly, always loyal, and is always herself. She's smart and sweet and does what she wants. Don't we all want to be as confident as Abby?

Spencer, Shawn - Cocky and annoying at first, I've definitely grown to love him. Most of the time. Parts of him remind me of my brother(the good parts, mostly), and others remind me of me. The sheer irreverence is something I know I enjoy.

Skywalker, Mara Jade - My bb. My second-favorite Star Wars character after Princess Leia. I mean, check it; she was the Emperor's favored Hand. She swore to kill Luke, and yet eventually turned to the light side (and married him, but that's only marginally related to anything). She was badass and determined and Timothy Zhan knows how to write me my favorite things, so, yeah. There's a reason I have two icons of her. I stopped reading the EU when they killed her off and destroyed Jacen(which is saying a lot, since I read all the post-movies EU novels, including that insane VY storyline).

Singer, Bobby - I have lots of thoughts on Bobby. I like him fine, and I adore Jim, and I miss him (even though that was a powerful send-off)...but I don't love him like some do. I don't like how Show seems to have tried to retcon him as the only person who cared about Sam and Dean. He's become a father of sorts for Dean(and Sam to a lesser extent), but I hate how some episodes seemed to want to make John an evil dirtbag and Bobby as the beleaguered better uncle. Basically, me no likely this steotype thing they keep putting John and Bobby into. Even though I don't care much for pre-series stuff, I still have strong feelings about John and Bobby and how they felt about each other and the boys.

SPACE(Canadian channel for my fellow Americans) is making a Primeval spin-off titled Primeval: New World. It entered production recently, so everyone in the news/blogs is picking it up.

IDK how I feel about this. On one hand, Niall Matter(!) and Sarah Canning in a Canadian version of Primeval. On the other hand, a spin-off of Primeval that isn't likely to mention the original. It could be worse: they could be out-and-out calling it a remake.
I guess I'll be giving it a go when it hits the air. If only to see Niall on my screen after Eureka(which I'm still not over, BTW).

Just realized that the next week is not going to be fun. D:
Sunday I babysit all day. Monday I have the final draft of a research paper due. Tuesday has the midterms for basketball. Wednesday is more school testing as well as me going to see the last home game that night. Thursday...probalby will have a science or math test, since we're finishing a unit soon. Friday will be our first proper history test. And I probably start working for the church at some point next week too. On top of all that, y'all know I've been kinda wishy-washy lately with my emotions and depression and stuff.
WHY.
Ugh. I miss being homeschooled.

Somebody save me. Find a TARDIS. Except Calvin and Hobbes has taught me that that solution NEVER works.

On the upside, last night's Psych was awesome! I love all the homages. And I'm totally looking forward to next week.


also at some point I will want to tag all these posts D:

Snagged from twisting_vine_x :D

First TV show I had self-insertion fantasies about:
Stargate, of course. Hell, I like to think I'm well on my way to my goal of actually getting to visit Cheyenne Mountain. :P

First fandom in which I interacted (online and in person) with other fans:
Stargate Atlantis/SG1. Ah, Gateworld. Fond(ish) memories.

Pairing in the first slash fanfiction I read:
LOL. Slash. The first slash fic I read was, like, a year ago, in SPN fandom. I'm sure it was Dean/Cas. My first het fic was John/Teyla, which happened way before I got into fandom. Those were the days when FF.net was king.

First RPS/RPF I read:
Merlin RPF: Bradley/Angel

First fanfiction I read that made me think, 'YES, this is exactly the kind of fanfiction I'd like to write...':
Oh, gosh, I don't even remember. I don't know if I ever thought that. Though, I think, Castles in the Sky from SGA fandom probably takes the cake. It's one of the few fics I read during those early years that's stuck with me. I don't even know if it was as good as I remember, but to me, it was everything perfect(even if it was gen).

Pairing in the first fanfiction I wrote:
John/Teyla, naturally. They were my gateway(hehehe) drug.

First OTP:
Sam/Jack. They were my OTP before I even knew what an OTP even was. All I knew was that after The Broca Divide, I really wanted them to live happily ever after.

First RPS/F OTP:
Bradley/Angel. Or, Bradley/Hussy. :P Oh, how I wish we still got video diaries.

First fannish friend I met in person:
Still waiting on this one. *sigh* Who knows who it'll be? If I get to go to a con next year, maybe I'll have something to fill in here. :P

First character I formally roleplayed:
Well, not actual in-person RP, but I did do twitter RP for a while in Sanctuary; I did Sally the mermaid and Kate Freelander.

I already feel not only much better, but I'm practically back to my regular self! I got three of the five big school projects due before the weekend done today so far, I'm starting on the fourth, and I fully plan on having them all done tomorrow by midnight(which is when they're due, but I'm just pretending that's my own arbitrary cut-off time).

That and talking to all of y'all did honestly make me feel better. And then ohmiya_sg got me all excited and yappy, and now I'm practically my bouncy self.

Also Dad brought me powdered donuts and ice cream because for all that he can be, having four women in a house has taught him what to do when one's pissy.