just dance

There was a lot of it. As I told Jen, it was a hair massacre! Pictures of what came off under the cut, though none of my snazzy new 'do because I roll sideways and don't do pictures of me online. Suffice it to say I really like it. My hair's too thick to have it look exactly like Hannah's but, I really like it. And I can wear hats! (I am wearing one now and I look ~good~)
Everyone at church tonight was awesome and loved it too.

( scaring images! HAIR! Dead hair! Everywhere! Needless violence against hair! )

Yet another rec, I'm sorry, but I just can't help it.
Running Up That Hill
713 Coda - Gen - Sam & Dean - The days that Sam doesn’t go running are the bad days. The day after Emma is a bad day.
;________; Dean's inner voice will break your heart, and poor Sam is quite beleaguered too.

Your poker face ain't fooling nobody, nobody here
We've all felt the flame and shed those same tears
Driving home to a one man hell, still counting years, still counting years
Hey brother we're all learning to love again

Making up your bed that day on a foreign floor between foreign walls
Thinking 'bout the words you'd say to a phone that never calls
Feel the weight of your father's ring and all those dreams, and all those dreams
Hey brother, we're all learning to love again

PERFECT DEAN'N'SAM SONG Y/Y? I was just listening to my shuffle the other day, and the first lines caught my ear, and so I listened it out, and now I can't not see it that way. Anyone else?
If lockedinabathroom made a video to it I think I would die happy. Hell, if anyone did. *hinthint*

Basically, it breaks down, in an interesting way, why Dean behaves the way he does to Sam, and, because that's kinda the point of the post, Cas. It's about homophobia in SPN, and why Dean/Cas will never be explorable because of the way the characters are, but, it includes some pretty spot-on stuff about Dean's character in the midst of that, and how he is who he is because of his relationships with John and Sam.

( more talking from me, and links, but cut to save your flist )


Something that the OP's reply made me think of; Evil!Cas, or the idea of Cas, the once-righteous angel, turning bad, or doing the wrong things for the right things. It's no secret that I adore twists that reveal my favorite characters to be in fact bad guys, or when a good guy goes bad. I was excited during the first mid-season finale of White Collar at the prospect that final scene brought up(you know the one; hotel room, Kate, and the ring). I was excited during the last episode of Sherlock's first season when Sherlock first sees John at the pool. The very first time I watched my first SPN episode, Lucifer Rising, when I saw one of the main characters, a good guy, or so I assumed from what I'd seen of fandom, when I saw Sam torture the demon and then kill Lilith, effectively going darkside, I thought, Wow, that's brave. That's exciting.. I was excited at the end of Mommy Dearest when we discovered what was going on. It may be a kink of mine. Check that, it probably is. But the fact is, I love it. I love it when good guys go bad, especially if they do the wrong things for the right reasons, if the road they take is the good-intentions path to hell. Which is why, even though my heart was breaking into a million little pieces on the floor, I was actually really excited during the latter half of S6 and 701.
And, I want to know where these stories are. Are writers too afraid to actually take their characters darkside and let them stay there? It's a bold more, it's hard to do, and it does alienate fanbase sometimes, but I think it's one of the coolest things I've seen. They don't even have to make the character permanently bad! They can include a redemption arc, 'cause those are awesome too. But, think about it. How often does that happen? I know it happened in Buffy at some point, right? I only know because I actually considered watching Buffy when I found out But where else does it happen? SPN? Kinda? It's a trope that I don't find enough, be it in shows or in fanfic. And that makes me sad, actually.
EVEN MY MUSIC IS RELEVANT, OMG. Seeing as Walk Away is about the speaker telling his girl to walk away because he's dangerous and will never let her get away from him if she stays, because he's found himself in a bad place. analyzed

But now that I'm inspired on the subject, I'm totally gonna go write that next-gen fic I have promised lunasky3.

ALSO I JUST REALIZED I STILL HAVE NOT SEEN THE DOCTOR WHO CHRISTMAS SPECIAL. And. I'm not too bothered. I guess I'll have to watch it at some point, though.

I'm not a huge fan of Loki/secretlytodream(the vidder) normally, but this vid is simply mind-blowing. It rolls out slow and close and just unfurls into the vastness (and closness) that is all the promises made that couldn't ever be kept, all the words that were said that meant so much, all the lives and deaths they've changed through, and eventually, what remains the same. Just, ugh, all the feelings. Most excellent example of why I love show and why Sam and Dean are just heartbreakingly perfectly sad. It's funny, because I was just explaining to my brother why Supernatural is both the worst and best show I watch. It's the only one I actually participate in fandom in anymore, and I've made tons of amazing friends in it. The mytharc is broad and expansive and amazing without being too complex with some truly stunning writing and creativity. But it's also the worst, because you can see how far it's falling downhill, how much potential exists that isn't ever going to be explored, and that makes it miserable.

~*~ALL THE FEELINGS~*~

Accomplished. \o/ Now that's the last thing I'm buying 'till I go back to work. Honest to God promise. Cross my heart. I was gonna get that Def Leppard Pyromania shirt, but I think Star Wars > Def Leppard for me, as much as I love my music. And I'm pretty sure the AC/DC and Def Leppard shirts were more expensive than the Ript apparel one.
I still need to buy a new pen for my tablet (since I stupidly dropped the other one in my glass of water) and something else very important that escapes me right now with my next check, so I'm officially tied down. I can't wait for summer so I can get more hours somewhere.

In other news, holy shit, someone find a defibrillator, because have you seen the promo pics for SPN 7x12? Not to spoil anyone...but..JFC, Jensen. *_____________* Nobody should be allowed to look that good. I mean, normal regular human beings can never match up to that. Even the king of fitted three-piece suits and hats (Neil ♥) has got some competition here.

I officially nominate him for the lead in the next film-noir/Dick Tracy detective-style film.

reposting this here because I don't know if I should post it to junerayne but I still want it backed up somewhere.
originally posted at erasureathon

Title: the fall
Original text(s) erased: Once in a Lifetime
Erased by: sgmajorshipper
Original text by: switchbladesis
Fandom (of original text): Supernatural
Fandom (of erasure): Supernatural
Notes: This is my first erasure, so I hope I did the awesomeness of the genre justice. It's short, but hopefully gets the point across. I only took the first portion of the original fic and erased it, because that's what felt right. The headings are my own additions, but that's just to differentiate between the two sections.

( Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. )

You know that feeling when you're pushing and pushing to get through with something so you can get to the break...and then you realize you're just going to have to work and push through the break too?
Yeah, I'm at that point. Looking at my to-do list and how much of it has to be done before Christmas and NY and I'm kinda just reeling. I want to curl up in a corner and watch ridiculous movies and eat popcorn and candy canes for the rest of the year.
Egh. Life. Why you so...full?

In other news, thanks everyone for the well wishes for the benefit! It was good...not as well as we had hoped, and a lot of stuff in the auction went for a lot lower than we'd hoped, but, at least it was something. Trying to divy up what goes where is hard, though, since it's not enough to pay off all of one thing. Just one thing at a time, pretty much, just like always.

Me and the brother finally sat through and watched X-Men: First Class all the way through, finally. I've only got one remarks; yeah, tumblr was totally right, because it's basically one big gay epic Greek tragedy. Everything was sadness by the end. And Charles was kinda unrealistic and an idiot, but I won't get into that too much. Basically, it was good, but, pretty much only on the same level as the other X-Men movies. Certainly not comparable to the rest of the Marvel crop from recently.

Also, posted my sassy_minibang artwork! The author's gonna put up the main post to the site later(speaking of which, y'all should totally go check out the stories they've gotten. I've only had time to read, like, four of the fics, but they were fantastic), but I won't be around 'till tomorrow afternoon late, so I put mine up tonight. It's over here, for anyone interested!

I've also been working on a 2014 Dean/Cas mix., which has been a...difficult process, as anyone who's been around me during ontd_spnparty's FFAs can attest to my whining about it. But it's done! And now I have to wait to post it to avoid spamming my comm. But, I figured, hey, I've got people on my flist who'd probably be interested in a peek at it, so here's the covers, if you like;
( under a cut because woah, they're pretty big )

ETA: Woah, LJ. Makeover much? First reaction; I DON'T LIKE ITTT GO BAAAACKK. As soon as there's a Stylish fix for it, I'm probably going back.

ETA2: Now I'm gonna go curl up with my printed up fic and work on my piece for erasureathon.

ETA3 aka last one I swear: They did fix the tags page! It's not, like, two inches wide anymore!

LOL. On one hand, excite. On the other, damn it, they better not screw this up any more than I know is gonna happen. And I say that as someone who wasn't super thrilled but was content with the previous arrangement for this season so far.

(for those on my flist who are avoiding SPN spoilers for unaired episodes, don't go into the comments, because there will be some)

LOL POSTED THIS AND CARRY ON STARTED PLAYING.

In better news, I went back to Science Club this week! Dad caved, as I had hoped he would, and set down some ridic rules that shouldn't be to hard to follow.

It seems like all the shows are trying to make everyone sad for the holidays. Yay. *sobs* Seriously, though. I don't cry at TV, really, no matter how I dramatize doing so. I can count on one hand the number of TV episodes I've cried over. And this SPN episode mad the list.
My heart.


In a much more important note, check this out! AWARENESS, YESSSS!

I'm hooked on Psych. It's so awesome. Watched the pilot and first couple of episodes last night, and they were fantastic. It's just the right balance between hilarious and ridiculous and awesome. :D

Anddd...I dl'd the episodes of Sanctuary I haven't seen this season. Apparently Tesla's in one, and I kinda like being all caught up, even if I'm not at all as into it as I was.

Finally! There is some absolutely fantastic meta and talk over here about Supernatural 708. If you're into objectively examining fandom or offering your opinions on it, gooooo check it out. The original post does a pretty good job of laying out the situation and asking questions that cut pretty well to the heart of fandom's issues with what happened. And the variety of responses is fascinating from an observational point of view. fandom can have an active discussion without falling apart into ugliness!
/puts away meta geekiness